I'm Done Missing You

You made my life hell,
You made me cry,
You made me die inside,
You're out of my life,
Why do I still miss you?

Tears fall down like rain,
The life in me begins to drain.
My heart hurts,
My life's falling apart,
And its all because of you.

I cant get you out of my head.
I'm stuck.
I try to be done,
but then you smile at me,
and then....
We start all over again.

I'm going to try like hell,
This time I'm not coming back.
I'm done missing you.
I'm done hurting over you.
I'm done putting up with all the stupid things you do.

So to be honest,
I hope you do get her pregnant,
I hope you're life's hell,
I hope that when you think of me you know what you missed.
I hope you get hit by a bus,
I hope you get everything that you deserve, because believe me hun, you deserve hell.
I wish you all the pain you've cause me times two,
I hope you wake up and see she will never be what you want her to.

So goodbye to the one I called my brother,
So goodbye to the pain,
Goodbye to the hate,
Goodbye to the tears,
And hello to the new start.

Preston

He makes the sun rise.
He makes the stars shine.
He makes the birds sing.
He is my everything.

Why did he have to go.
Why couldnt he have stayed.
Why does the pain grow stronger everyday.
Why cant I get him out of my mind.

I love him.
I miss him.
I need him.
I cant take another second without him.

Love Is Evil

Love is Evil.
Love is Pain.
Love is Hate.
Love is hurt.
Love is hard.
Love is cruel.
Love is unkind.
Love is unwanted.
Love is uncool.
Love is all the things you cant say.
Love is all the thoughts you don't dare think.
Love is hope.

Emma

Shes Everything to me,
shes perfect in every single way,
shes smart,
shes pretty,
shes everything a girl should be.

I'm in love with her,
but its a secret of course.
I don't want anything to ever hurt her.

Emma.
I love her.
Someday I hope she reads this,
so she will know,
how true my love really is for her.
I'd die for her.
I'm in love with her.

The Glass Room

Im in a room,
its made out of glass.
Theres only one way out,
I have to break the glass,
but if I do that,
I'm going to get hurt.
So I must pick,
Stay and die on the inside,
or get hurt coming out.

I Miss Those Days

Those days when I wouldn't cry myself to sleep at night,
those days when I didn't wish I was dead,
those days where I was happy,
those days when I had you.

Every things different now,
every things changing,
everything isn't as important,
as those days when I had you.

I'm sick of the drama,
I miss those days.
I need you here.
Because Preston,
I do,
I miss you.

Forever

Forever. Forever. Forever.
Its just a made up word.
There is no such thing as forever.
We only have seconds.
In seconds a life can be ruined,
in sconds a life can be made.
Forever is never really forever.
If nothing last forever,
then why is it even a word.

The Perfect Girl

Shes beautiful,
but she doesn't see it.
Shes smart,
but she doesn't believe it.
Shes amazing,
but she doesn't understand it.
Shes perfect,
but she doesn't think it.
I'm in love with her,
but I don't want to believe it.

Someday

Someday you're going to see,
just how much pain you caused me.
Someday you're going to cry for me.
Someday you're going to die,
and I will dance on your grave.
You stabbed me in the back,
so now I'm stuck,
praying that you get hit by a bus,
struck by lightning,
eaten by a bear.
Someday a day is going to come,
where you look back and think about the time you walked away from me.

Jakeass

I use to call him Jakey,
now i call him Jakeass.
Hes a jerk,
I never want love back.
Everytime i love someone,
they leave me.
Jake knew if he left it would kill me,
and yet he left anyway.
So now I call him Jakeass.

Dear Jake

You're my best friend,
I know im hard to deal with,
my depression drives you crazy,
I know ive hurt you.
But in the end you always come back,
you always stay be my side.
Thank you.
I need you more then words can tell.
Im sorry.
Love sam.

- Sam

Please Don't Give Up On Me

You said you give up on me,
You said you're done trying to help me,
Please don't.
I need you.
Im sorry.
I wont let him use me anyone,
Please forgive me.
Jake please,
I really do need you.

- Sam

Dead End Road

In the end,
We all go down the same road.
We all die,
We all cry,
We all laugh,
We all sing,
We all feel the same feelings,
We're all people.
So why do we treat each other with such hate,
Such little understanding.
If we don't change now,
We're just going to end up on,
A dead end road,
With no way to turn around.

- Sam

Life Is A Ride

We take this ride for years,
Sometimes we can barley hang on,
Sometimes we slip and almost fall.
Its the ride of life.
I'm about to fall,
Everyone slips sometimes,
But nobody has to fall because the rides to much to take.
Life goes on even if you cant keep up.
I know,
In the end,
I'll be fine.
But for those of us who give up and jump off,
Think before you act...

- Sam

My Trust Is Gone

Don't take it personally,
I don't trust anyone anymore.
My trust is gone,
There's only a handful of people I trust.
Trust takes years to build,
and one second to break.
Its because of them I don't trust,
every ones going to leave me again,
I cant love anyone,
I cant trust anyone,
It all hurts too much.
Its because of you I don't trust.
You're using me,
So stop,
Before the little trust I have is gone.
Too late.
My trust is gone.

- Sam

He's Coming Home

I cried when he left,
It broke my heart,
Our friendship was over,
He was gone.
Our mindless hours together were over,
its safe to say I loved him,
I probably still do.

To every goodbye there is a hello,
He's coming home,
We can be together again,
He's moving back.
Now I only cry,
tears of pure joy.

- Sam

Every Second

Every second hurts,
Every second brings me more pain,
Every second away from you,
Kills me.

You left me here alone,
You left me here to die,
You killed yourself,
And now I'm dying too.

All I can think about is the memorys we could have had,
All the good times we could have shared,
All the times we could have cried together,
Its gone now.

What can I do but cry,
Theres no changing to past,
I'm broken,
But its not just because of you.

Its because of him too,
He was sick,
It wasnt his fault,
But I needed him here.

I needed him to know me,
I needed him to hold me,
I needed him to be here,
But he wasnt.

Every second hurts,
Every second brings me more pain,
Every second away from him,
Kills me.

But It isnt his fault im like this,
It isnt anyones fault,
I didnt know him,
So why does it hurt so bad.

Its also because of her,
She was old,
It wasnt her fault,
But I miss her more and more.

I always thought she'd be there for me,
No matter how old I got,
No matter how old she got,
Now I cant think about her without crying.

Every second hurts,
Every second brings me more pain,
Every second away from her,
Kills me.

Every second hurts,
Every second brings me more pain,
Every second away from them,
Kills me.

- Sam

I Don't Care

Hes using me,
but here's the thing,
I don't care,
Nothing hurts me anymore,
I no longer care if I hurt the ones I love,
Or if someone hurts me,
Or if someone uses me,
like he is now.
I gave up,
and now,
I don't care.
I never cared to begin with,
I knew you were using me the second u said,
"I will never let anyone hurt you ever again"
that's when I knew,
I knew you were going to hurt me,
I knew you didn't really care,
And for some god damn reason,
I just don't care.
My hearts been broken too many times,
I know pain,
I am pain,
So I no longer feel it.

- Sam

I Don't Need You

I hate you,
I don't need you!
I never needed you,
I just needed someone to talk to.
I made the wrong choice,
by talking to you,
the wrong choice,
in trusting you.
I use to think I would circle the world for you,
but today I wouldn't walk an inch for you.
I don't need you,
anymore.

- Sam

Im Going To Die

A feeling of doom,
A feeling of anger.
I cant explain it,
but I think,
Im going to die,
I dont know how,
or why,
or when.
All I know is soon,
I will be gone.
I want to be remembered as Sam,
Not samantha.

- Sam

The Trust I Don't Have Anymore

You promised you would never tell,
You said you could keep my secret.
Now you say if I don't tell my parents you will.
I don't trust you anymore.
I don't have to tell anybody anything,
I should never have told you.
For now I do not trust you,
and i never will again.

- Samantha

You're Nothing But A Memory

I shouldn't have called you,
Your just not that dorky little kid I use to love.
You've changed,
Or maybe it is I who has changed.
Now,
You're nothing but a memory.
Id rather have you a memory,
then know you for who you are today.

- Samantha.

She Loves My Enemy

She loves him,
I can hear it in her voice,
see it in her eyes,
and feel it in my gut.
She loves Ethan,
my enemy.
My best friend loves my enemy.
Who am I to say that she can not love him?
Who am I to judge her?
My biggest nightmare,
has become the biggest truth,
For I feel,
he may love her back.

- Samantha

Never Really Loved You

I figured out why I hate myself,
I figured out why I cry
I figured out who I am.
But I also figured out...
that I never really loved you.
Jake, Im sorry,
but I never really loved you,
I just needed someone to talk to,
Someone to trust.
It kills me to say this
But I never really loved him.

- Samantha

The Good Stuff

Your hair,
Your eyes,
Your laugh,
Your love,
You smile,
Its the good stuff.
Your life is pure,
Your heart is simple,
Your the one I love,
Your the one I want,
But its okay,
You can have her,
I'll wait here in the background.

- Samantha

Ohio

I hate it here,
I don't belong,
I don't fit in,
I don't want to be here.
I want to go back.
I need to go back.
I was truly happy there.
In Ohio.
When I turn 18,
that's where I'll be.
I'll be where the cornstalks tower over me.
I'll be with my Uncles that I love.
I'll be where Gimpy died.
I'll be where I'm happy.

- Samantha

School

So in English class we are starting poetry... i hate doing poetry in school.

- Sam

Your Love

Your love for her is golden,
Your love for life is more then the stars,
Your love for me,
is nothing...
You say you love me like a sister,
You say you want me in your life.
Why would you want me in your life,
When all I do is screw up.
You say you love having me around.
Your love isn't for me anymore,
Its for her...
You love her more then anyone,
Your love for her is golden.
Your love for me is none.

- Samantha

Keep On Loving You

Your with her,
You say your in love again,
But this time its so real,
I Keep on loving you,
You keep on loving her,
And She loves you back.
I hope your happy with her,
I hope shes happy with you,
As long as your happy,
Im happy for you.
Just always know,
I will always love you.

- Samantha

Its The Little Things

Its the way you smile,
Its the way you love,
Its the way your eyes shine,
Its the flaws,
Its the little things,
that make me love you.

Its how you look at her,
Its how you love her,
Its how you don't love me anymore,
Its how you take a hour to figure things out,
Its the little things,
that make me love you.

- Samantha

Sorry That I Love You

I love your every little flaw,
I love your smile,
I love your eyes,
I love your hair,
I love everything about you,
Sorry that I love you.

I love the way your hair reaches down to the center of your back,
I love the way your lips twitch,
I love the way your eyes sparkle,
I love the way you love her,
I love everything about you,
Sorry that I love you.

I wont try to hurt you and her,
I just want you to be happy,
But I also want you to know,
I love everything about you,
But Mostly I love the way you don't love me,
Sorry that I love you.

- Samantha

I Keep You Out Because...

I love you,
it kills me to say it,
but I do.
I pretend to hate you,
so you cant ever get close.
I keep you out because...
because I don't want to be hurt again,
because I don't want to love again,
because your amazing in everything you do,
because your perfect in your own way,
because your smile makes me melt,
because your eyes invite me in,
because I need you.

- Samantha

Where Am I

I look around,
and I know,
this house is not a home.
Its not the place I grew up in,
Its not the place I want to be in.
Where am I,
if this isnt a home,
then what is it?
Is it just a house?
Where Am I...

- Samantha

I Told Because I Love You

Please don't be mad,
She needed to know,
I couldn't live with myself if you actually did it.
I couldn't live knowing,
that you were gone because i didn't speak up.
So I told your mom.
I told her about your poems,
the ones about killing yourself.
Now you say you hate me,
you say you never want to talk to me again.
I told because I love you,
I always will,
Even if you hate me.

- Samantha

How Can I Not Love You

You don't know it,
but you're perfect.
You don't know it,
but you're beauitful.
You don't know it,
but I love you.
Its impossible not to love you.
I love your laugh,
I love your hair,
I love your smile,
But most of all,
I love your love.

- Samantha

Truth About Lies

My life is a lie,
my world is a lie,
we are lies.
There is no truth in this world.
The truth is dead.
And so am I.
I am a lie,
I am death that has yet to come.
And thats the truth.

- Samantha

She Wont Ever See You As More

Your smile shines,
your eyes sparkle,
and yet,
she wont ever see you as more then just a friend.
I love you.
You love her.
She wont ever see you as more.
You know how much I need you,
you know how much I love you.
Why do you want her,
when someone who really cares,
is standing right here in front of you.
She wont ever see you as more.

- Samantha

Nana

Its hard to believe a year has gone by,
it seems like just yesterday you were with me,
with us.
I never pictured life without you,
Now your gone,
now my life is no longer complete.
I need you,
I miss you,
and I still love you.

- Samantha

Got To Thinking

Last night the tears poured like rain,
I got to thinking,
I don't love you anymore.
I don't need you anymore.
For the first time ever my heart is clear,
For the first time ever I want to see you with her.
I'm over you.
All because,
I got to thinking,
thinking about you.

- Samantha

Shes Beautiful

She's beautiful,
but shes the only one who doesn't see it.
Shes everything to me.
Shes like a little sister.
The sunrise cant compare to her beauty.
The stars are only a fraction of what she means to me.
She cant see her own beauty,
she acts like shes nothing,
when the truth is shes everything.

- Samantha

(this poem is for my best friend Emily, who for some reason cant see how beautiful she really is)

Eyes Of Pain

Truth lies beneath the lies,
You hide your pain well,
Until people see your eyes.
They show your true pain,
which hides behind your lies.
Your eyes fill with pain,
truth,
hate,
But they also fill with love,
love for the lies,
love for the pain,
love for the hate.
You cant live without pain,
your to use to it.
We both have eyes of pain...

- samantha

Never Going To Belong

Theres a hole in my heart,
it cant be filled.
I'm simply never going to belong,
I'm simply never going to fit in,
I'm simply depressed.
Alone I sit and wait,
time slowly creeps by.
I'm alone,
even when a million people sorond me.
Im alone,
even when a million people hold me.
Im simply alone.
I don't belong here,
I'm never going to belong here,
no matter how much you try to make it work,
my heart isnt here,
I dont belong.

- sam

Hold My Hand

You left me alone to wonder,
just who you were.
You left me with a hole in my heart,
you were like that missing peice.
All I need now is you,
and maybe,
just maybe,
i'll be complete.
I need you to hold my hand,
guide me threw life,
which was unfairly cut short for you.
Hold my hand,
show me the way.
Show me the love,
that will never feel the same.

- sam

I Lied

You asked me if I was okay with all this,
I said "I'm fine."
You asked me if it was going to be awkward,
I said, "no."
You asked me if you could date my best friend,
only a week after we broke up.
I said,
"Go ahead."
I lied. Its not fine.
It kills me to say it but I still love you,
I always will.
It breaks my heart to see you with her.
I hope your happy,
even though I'm not.
I couldnt break you the way you did me.

- sam

Growing Pains

I use to know you,
But now Its like looking like a stranger.
Your different,
I cant explain it,
You just are.
Or maybe it is I who has changed.
The farther we grow apart,
The worse I get.
I need you now more then ever,
when everything is changing,
I need you to stay the same.
Your causing me growing pains.

- sam

Where To Find Me?

Alright I started writing when I was 12. I have around 110 poems online. You can find them at www.poemhunter.com just type in samantha guinen and you will find me. For now thats were you can view my stuff, ill post some newer poems later on this week.

First Post

Hi everyone out there that has an interest in poetry. I love to write and thought it would be cool to share some of my stuff with people like me. I hope you enjoy my blog as much as I do. Thanks for reading.